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Friday, 22 August 2014

Juma'ah Barakah ~ The Circle in Blacks

Assalamu'alaikum. It's otherwise a good Friday, apart from mourning the tragedy Malaysians have to endure for MH17 and MH370. We in this monochrome circle have been so used to donning black outfits, so nothing weird about the color at all, at all. But some of us really don't have better things to do other than complaining and making stupid remarks over the government's decision to promote wearing black outfits to show our mourning today. How shallow. How lame. How insensitive. Of all the things that happened they chose to show their stupidity instead. Kesian..

I mean, why don't they go barking at those in Saudi Arabia who wear only blacks? Or to Lim Kok Wing University, which is much much nearer ~ the corporate color is black and the staffs will have to wear only blacks every freaking day? And since when Islam disallows Muslims to wear blacks as a sign of mourning? Or obligates them to ONLY wear WHITES, for that matter? Adoi...!



They of course might never heard of a wise saying: If you don't have anything nice to say, just shut the crap up. 

~ Nai at Tak Pe Je.

Tuesday, 19 August 2014

A Piece of Me Taken Away. Sway..

Assalamu'alaikum. A lot of things have happened that I think I've lost most of myself. May be it's just a phase of transition or may be even emotional turmoil, who knows? But I really have got to get myself together again and move forward. The sooner the better. What's wrong, you might wonder. Well, nothing much.. I just had a miscarriage again after one year and a half, that's why. I can't even begin to tell how strange this thing has made me feel, but let's just say I feel N.U.M.B if that's even the word best to describe it. But you know what? I've done every single thing imaginable to take care of myself and the baby in my womb. Bed rest? Yep, even that. But God obviously had another plan for me, the one that I'm yet to figure out. In the meantime, keep breathing is what I intend to do. 

One thing to make things much easier is to keep myself occupied with loads of works, so yesterday I began doing just that. After resting for 2 straight weeks I kicked off living a busy life. Groceries yesterday, appointments today. I still feel occassional pain in the abdomen but nothing beats the suffering in my heart. I'm still very much sensitive, which concerns me a lot. I guess I haven't got the time to let go and cry. I just refuse to do that this time. I don't know, may be it's not the right time yet?


Let me work things out and get back to you, okay? 

~ Nai at Tak Pe Je.

Monday, 18 August 2014

Embrace Monday We Shall

Assalamu'alaikum. Weekend's over, too bad. Time to work our heads off tomorrow just yet again. Be glad we have works to do, on a positive note. How about one sweet smile now, lovelies? Hurmm.. That's more like it!


Together we shall welcome Monday, insya Allah. Take care!

~ Nai at Tak Pe Je.

Thursday, 7 August 2014

Hidung McD dan Ayah lagu Mawi

Assalamu'alaikum. Hari tu balik Temerloh aku tengah emosional dalam kereta. Jap-jap tu la ada lagu Ayah dalam radio, oh sungguh baik dia punya timing! Apa lagi kan, pecah la segala empangan. Aku ni kalau dah start nangis susah nak berenti, brek semua tak makan. Main lalu je. Laju pulak tu. Hidung dah merah macam McD yang korang pakat boikot tu. Dah la pakai tudung kuning, kan? Untung la korang yang masih ada ayah.. Buat la sehabis baik, korang. Jangan tunggu mampu baru nak kasi hadiah mahal-mahal. Dah mampu esok, belum tentu ayah masih ada. Takpun, buatnya kita yang pegi dulu, lagi putih mata..! 


Kalau pun kita tak kena angin dengan depa, abaikan aje.. Baik buruk pun, itulah je ayah kita. Takde galang gantinya dah. Ayah orang lain baik macamana pun, tetap tak sama dengan ayah sendiri. Kita ni jahat macamana pun depa tetap sayangkan kita walaupun mulut depa penuh dengan kata-kata amarah. Topeng je tu semua. Dalam hati, depa sayang sangat kat kita. Tu la pon sebab depa marah.. Kalau tak sayang, pedulik apa kita nak terlungkup terbongkang terjerumus ke lembah udara Gaban sekalipun! Marah tu la tanda kasih dan sayang seorang ayah. Kalu ayah korang jenis pendiam, silent treatment dia jangan duk layan. Borak je la walaupun macam borak dengan tunggul. Dah jenis rupa itu, nak buat camna kan? Kita duk ikut diam sama apa de hal? Takde maknanya..! 


Dah la, lama-lama lagi karang macam mak nenek pulak aku berleter. Yang penting, aku tetap mampu selfie walaupun dengan hidung macam McD. Ambik mood, bukan apa.. Supaya bila sampai rumah mak, tak ketara sangat bengkak mata aku. Dah la adik-beradik duk tunggu nak bergambar raya tu.. Abis rosak gambar! Alhamdulillah.. Aku ada mak lagi walaupun ayah dah takde. Esok bila mak pulak takde, aku rasa macam tak mampu je nak teruskan hidup. Ya Allah... Kau panjangkan la umur mak aku yang gojes ni.. Baikkan la kesihatannya. Jagalah dia untuk aku walaupun kalau aku yang Kau nak ambik dulu..


Oh, aku tengah sedih masa taip entry ni, so abaikan la aje nada-nada melankolik mana yang korang kesan dan sedari. Jaga diri, hiasi peribadi. Jangan duk hasad dengki dengan orang.. Bawak-bawak la bertaubat dan bersihkan hati.. Kita bukan hidup menongkat langit. Kalau tak boleh nak buat pahala, jangan duk sibuk nak tambah dosa. Neraka Allah tu luas, macam jugak syurga Allah. Kalau orang tak maafkan kita, esok-esok roh kita bumi tak terima, padan muka kita. Udah-udah la tu jadi laknatullah kawan dengan syaitan dan iblis. Udah-udah la, labu..!

~ Nai at Tak Pe Je.