Sunday, 31 August 2014

Speckyme, Mummy..!

Assalamu'alaikum. Junior is now a specky himself. Oh My...! And he really likes it, well at least for now. He chose his own frame, which appeared to be very 'grown-up' in the first place, as opposed to my optometrist's and my suggestions. I let him choose what he wanted, as usual but personally I couldn't say I didn't like what he chose. Looks nice on him!

Judging from his power prescription, his eyesight has suffered for quite some time but he had been hiding it from us. He started to tell me that he couldn't see what the teachers wrote on the white-board last week only when he had swapped place in the classroom with another boy with poor vision. I guess if he still occupies his usual table at the front row, even he wouldn't  know about his poor vision, let alone his mummy! 

I started to wear glasses at thirteen and my boy at TEN! As I was feeling low and troubled, there was another kid at the optician with his mom and he turned out to be NINE. Looking at the boy's undivided attention from his PSP, I knew what had caused him to become a specky at such tender age. It has become a norm, Oh My...!

Anyways, the picture above was the notes I prepared for Junior for his Tajweed test last Wednesday because he didn't bring home his own notes taken at school despite my constant reminders. After the test, which he eagerly said he could do very well (Alhamdulillah..!), he finally told me why he didn't bring home his notes. He couldn't see what's written on the white-board because he had been placed at the back. I said he shouldn't have just kept quiet and should have at least let me know so that I could bring him to have his eyes examined straight away. Well, you haven't been quite well lately, mummy.. Came his answer, which broke my heart. My very soft-hearted boy! 

After he got his glasses, which I somehow made sure was ready immediately, he was practically jumping up and down in excitement and proclaimed beamingly: Well, Mummy.. Now I'm also a "Speckyme", just like you! (Referring to my hashtag #speckyme in the Instagram). That had made me laughed out loud. Glad he was happy.. Alhamdulillah.

~  Nai at Tak Pe Je.

Friday, 22 August 2014

Juma'ah Barakah ~ The Circle in Blacks

Assalamu'alaikum. It's otherwise a good Friday, apart from mourning the tragedy Malaysians have to endure for MH17 and MH370. We in this monochrome circle have been so used to donning black outfits, so nothing weird about the color at all, at all. But some of us really don't have better things to do other than complaining and making stupid remarks over the government's decision to promote wearing black outfits to show our mourning today. How shallow. How lame. How insensitive. Of all the things that happened they chose to show their stupidity instead. Kesian..

I mean, why don't they go barking at those in Saudi Arabia who wear only blacks? Or to Lim Kok Wing University, which is much much nearer ~ the corporate color is black and the staffs will have to wear only blacks every freaking day? And since when Islam disallows Muslims to wear blacks as a sign of mourning? Or obligates them to ONLY wear WHITES, for that matter? Adoi...!

They of course might never heard of a wise saying: If you don't have anything nice to say, just shut the crap up. 

~ Nai at Tak Pe Je.

Tuesday, 19 August 2014

A Piece of Me Taken Away. Sway..

Assalamu'alaikum. A lot of things have happened that I think I've lost most of myself. May be it's just a phase of transition or may be even emotional turmoil, who knows? But I really have got to get myself together again and move forward. The sooner the better. What's wrong, you might wonder. Well, nothing much.. I just had a miscarriage again after one year and a half, that's why. I can't even begin to tell how strange this thing has made me feel, but let's just say I feel N.U.M.B if that's even the word best to describe it. But you know what? I've done every single thing imaginable to take care of myself and the baby in my womb. Bed rest? Yep, even that. But God obviously had another plan for me, the one that I'm yet to figure out. In the meantime, keep breathing is what I intend to do. 

One thing to make things much easier is to keep myself occupied with loads of works, so yesterday I began doing just that. After resting for 2 straight weeks I kicked off living a busy life. Groceries yesterday, appointments today. I still feel occassional pain in the abdomen but nothing beats the suffering in my heart. I'm still very much sensitive, which concerns me a lot. I guess I haven't got the time to let go and cry. I just refuse to do that this time. I don't know, may be it's not the right time yet?

Let me work things out and get back to you, okay? 

~ Nai at Tak Pe Je.

Monday, 18 August 2014

Embrace Monday We Shall

Assalamu'alaikum. Weekend's over, too bad. Time to work our heads off tomorrow just yet again. Be glad we have works to do, on a positive note. How about one sweet smile now, lovelies? Hurmm.. That's more like it!

Together we shall welcome Monday, insya Allah. Take care!

~ Nai at Tak Pe Je.

Thursday, 7 August 2014

Hidung McD dan Ayah lagu Mawi

Assalamu'alaikum. Hari tu balik Temerloh aku tengah emosional dalam kereta. Jap-jap tu la ada lagu Ayah dalam radio, oh sungguh baik dia punya timing! Apa lagi kan, pecah la segala empangan. Aku ni kalau dah start nangis susah nak berenti, brek semua tak makan. Main lalu je. Laju pulak tu. Hidung dah merah macam McD yang korang pakat boikot tu. Dah la pakai tudung kuning, kan? Untung la korang yang masih ada ayah.. Buat la sehabis baik, korang. Jangan tunggu mampu baru nak kasi hadiah mahal-mahal. Dah mampu esok, belum tentu ayah masih ada. Takpun, buatnya kita yang pegi dulu, lagi putih mata..! 

Kalau pun kita tak kena angin dengan depa, abaikan aje.. Baik buruk pun, itulah je ayah kita. Takde galang gantinya dah. Ayah orang lain baik macamana pun, tetap tak sama dengan ayah sendiri. Kita ni jahat macamana pun depa tetap sayangkan kita walaupun mulut depa penuh dengan kata-kata amarah. Topeng je tu semua. Dalam hati, depa sayang sangat kat kita. Tu la pon sebab depa marah.. Kalau tak sayang, pedulik apa kita nak terlungkup terbongkang terjerumus ke lembah udara Gaban sekalipun! Marah tu la tanda kasih dan sayang seorang ayah. Kalu ayah korang jenis pendiam, silent treatment dia jangan duk layan. Borak je la walaupun macam borak dengan tunggul. Dah jenis rupa itu, nak buat camna kan? Kita duk ikut diam sama apa de hal? Takde maknanya..! 

Dah la, lama-lama lagi karang macam mak nenek pulak aku berleter. Yang penting, aku tetap mampu selfie walaupun dengan hidung macam McD. Ambik mood, bukan apa.. Supaya bila sampai rumah mak, tak ketara sangat bengkak mata aku. Dah la adik-beradik duk tunggu nak bergambar raya tu.. Abis rosak gambar! Alhamdulillah.. Aku ada mak lagi walaupun ayah dah takde. Esok bila mak pulak takde, aku rasa macam tak mampu je nak teruskan hidup. Ya Allah... Kau panjangkan la umur mak aku yang gojes ni.. Baikkan la kesihatannya. Jagalah dia untuk aku walaupun kalau aku yang Kau nak ambik dulu..

Oh, aku tengah sedih masa taip entry ni, so abaikan la aje nada-nada melankolik mana yang korang kesan dan sedari. Jaga diri, hiasi peribadi. Jangan duk hasad dengki dengan orang.. Bawak-bawak la bertaubat dan bersihkan hati.. Kita bukan hidup menongkat langit. Kalau tak boleh nak buat pahala, jangan duk sibuk nak tambah dosa. Neraka Allah tu luas, macam jugak syurga Allah. Kalau orang tak maafkan kita, esok-esok roh kita bumi tak terima, padan muka kita. Udah-udah la tu jadi laknatullah kawan dengan syaitan dan iblis. Udah-udah la, labu..!

~ Nai at Tak Pe Je.

Monday, 4 August 2014

Eid To Eid One Year Round

Assalamu'alaikum. Last Eid ul Fitri I didn't get to wear exactly two of my new clothes for I chose to leave them behind to be worn in KL. Well, at least that was the actual plan but it just didn't happen. Then throughout the year I bought a few new sarees and sent them to the tailor as usual, only to end up wearing one of them for my cousin's wedding. Entered the lycra maxi dresses. Practical-wise, I began to quickly prefer them over trickier modern kurungs, understandably. So I decided to 'marinate' the eid outfits together with the new sarees until this very Syawal, which was by all means unprecedented, to say the least. 

However, I did send another two different sarees exclusively for this raya and made them into a modern kurung and a kebaya. The modern kurung I did wear as planned on the 1st day of Syawal 1435H Monday 28th July 2014. Heheh. The kebaya I still contemplate either to wear or marinate one year round. Anyways, let's just cross the bridge when it comes, shall we?

1st Syawal: The only new outfit fresh from oven - modern kurung.

2nd Syawal: Turquoise saree modern kurung.

3rd Syawal: Royal Yellow Pahang Kurung - I went to get green-base lace and sew it myself to spice things up a bit. 

5th Syawal: Another saree modern kurung.

I didn't go anywhere on the 4th day and just lazied around at my in-laws' before going off to Temerloh the following day. And guess what? I still have one kebaya from last raya and another one from this raya that I don't know when to wear! This has to stop, nai. Stop buying clothes! Talk to the hand, though. 

But seriously, I must have gotten really old.. I didn't even have new shoes or hijabs for this Eid - just make do with the existing ones at home. As long as everybody that mattered got what they deserved, I couldn't be happier. I wish I could give more but yeah, Allah Knows Best. 

Thanks for reading this, fellas. Take care!

~ Nai at Tak Pe Je.